Little by Little

The past week and a half I've struggled, really struggled.  There are ups and downs to that come in the healing processes.  When I'm struggling I'm emotionally triggered by nearly everything around me, working through flashback after flashback, waking up in sheer panic every morning and it can become a challenge just to function.  In those moments I worry about posting anything on this blog that will diminish others hope, say something that isn't correct, be triggering or plethora of other things.

As much as I would love to have every post be nearly perfect, describing the challenges and pains that come from childhood sexual abuse along with the joys of healing, applying the Atonement and

psychotherapy, life just isn't that way.

Yesterday I was asked something along the lines of, "What has helped you get through this time of struggling that has been different than before?"  My answer, "I was able to rely on when I've struggled before and now I know I can overcome days and weeks like this.  Before I didn't know if it would ever go away."  This for me was a great victory!  As small as it is, it is progress and that is what matters.

Healing will not come all at once, as much as I wish it would.  It comes as we consistently apply true principles in our lives, little by little.