We Never Walk Alone

The past couple of weeks I've been able to take a step back and reflect on the last two years of my life.  They have been rough and there were many times I thought the tribulations I was going through were going to kill me and at times I was ok with that idea.  The pain and torment that haunted me was much to overwhelming for just one person to bare. 

I lost hope, was suicidal, struggled with urges of cutting, and the list goes on.  I was mad at myself and the situation I was in and didn't understand feelings of suicide or cutting while believing so strongly in the plan of salvation.  Everything was a battle.  I questioned things I'd never questioned before including the power of the Atonement. 

It was difficult and at the time felt impossible for me to have hope that my future would be brighter than what I was experiencing.  As difficult it was for me to believe in myself and the Savior I realized others had a strength and were willing to let me lean on them until I could find my own footing once again.  My counselor once said to me, "You can lean on my faith in you for a little bit until you can have more faith in yourself.  I know that it will all be worth it! And you are on the right path to healing!"

Even thought I was questioning nearly everything and it was difficult to do even routine tasks somehow I continually prayed to our Father in Heaven and read in the scriptures.  At times my prayer was merely,  "Heavenly Father, I need help" accompanied by just flipping open the scriptures and reading one verse.  However I know by doing so, as small as it was, I received strength beyond my own.

We never walk alone.